Sometimes I wonder why do I even care? Why do I even have to think of ways to make them feel better. Why do I have to trouble myself with their own personal problems.

But I guess that is just me. No matter how much I want to runaway from them when they have problems so that I will not be bothered by it. I Just can't. I'm stuck with them and I am stuck with this.

Sometimes, I want to runaway as far as I could, so far that I won't be able to reach them and vice-versa. I want to go to a place that no one knows who I am so that I could live my life peacefully. But i guess even if I found that place, i won't be able to stop myself from worrying about them.

Sure, i could by pass for a month or two. But for the following months, things will start to eat me up.

As much as I want to help them, I am nothing but a person trapped in a hole. of course they have their own minds, they know what's right and wrong. All I could do was to watch from afar and see them take the roads that they think is the right path.

I won't leave them, if that is what you are worrying about. I'll still be here, around.

whether it be friends, family or the boys. Really can't help but problem their own problems.

Maybe a good long vacation is not such a bad idea right? hmm...i should take up on that offer then.

oh well, nobody forced me into this okay. It's just me and my random thinking.

I guess, thinking too much into the future is a bad thing...............................










or not.


before I end this....." No matter what kind of obstacles, hardships, broken relationships, and broken dreams we may encounter. We shoudl never give up. Life doesn't end here. It's just the begining. Don't let such things eat you up and destroy the dream you built for yourself. Because if you let it eat you up too much then...you will never be able to build another dream again."

Title: Thorned Flowers
Genre: Au
Pairing: Tanaka
Summary: People fell in and out of love, I thought I was different but I was not. I was sharing the same fate with 15,000 other people out there.
Disclaimer: Even though I wrote 2 tanaka fics I'm still a Akame fan. The plot of the story is mine :D. I do not own the characters except for the girl.
Author note: This is my comeback fic, I hope the readers will like this. It's short but meaningful. I dedicate this fic to aoi_tenshi05 and freysan . I hope you will enjoy this. Comments are love but if you don't like to then it's fine.

A/N: I was supposed to finish the sequel that was requested from me...but instead I ended up writing the "supposed to be epilogue". but anyway I had fun writing this! hahaha! thanks.

( (Alternate Epilogue) )

Since I have been crying since lunch time because we watched a movie about war in our religion class. When I arrived from school I cried once again because of another movie. I was inspired to write a one-shot Akame fic..although it is not yet done; only the first part I hope that It would be ok. Since I'm planning to start writing fics once again! yeah!!!! anyway I hope you guys would like it..and please don't forget to comment.


Summary:

How would you spend the last remaining days of your life if you found out that you only have a little time left. How would you say good-bye to the person you love the most? would love still conquer even death?

YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!!!!!!!!!! (hahahaha! LSS mode ng CODE ni Ryo until now!)

Hayz..My tummy aches like hell but I still have the energy to write about the things that happened yesterday. hahahaha!

Umm let's see..where should I begin? I found out about the gathering around, Third week of August and I surprised. I was not expecting it that soon plus the practices for our school's pep squad includes Saturday practices and I was really worried I would not be able to come. Then at that same very week, I asked sempai (aoi_tenshi05 </lj>) and Ysa (kawaiiysa ) that we should present something for the upcoming gathering. Well of course they instantly agreed when I told them we were to dance KAT-TUN medley. HAHAHA!

So the following Saturday, We began our practice together with the other 3 members of the group, Sachi (baliwnababae ), Kat (yutopi ) and Pat. The six of us took in the position of each KAT-TUN member which I will reveal later!</lj></lj></lj> Hahahaha!

To tell you the truth guys, the practice is one hell of a day for them. Really they all got an earful of curses and shouts from me. Well that's how I work...Very much similar to Kame. The two of us are slave drivers! hahaha! we won't stop till everything is perfect.

Then the day of the gathering came. We all met at Mcdo Philcoa at around 9 am. 30 min. later than the actual meet up. Then we went to Lhuke's (lhukhe09 ), it was at her place where we held the gathering. As soon as we got there we began our last hour rehearsals and mind you they really had a hard time from me, since i'm starting to feel the pressure. Then after that I went out to fetch our surprise for Sachi and the others for their birthdays. Ahahahaha! you guys should have seen their faces when I said to them that it was my birthday gift for them! hahaha!

Anyway back to the gathering, We played human bingo game even if we were only few and it was fun, because I won! hahaha! My price for the game was a free poster, but instead of having one when Lhuke gave me the poster for sempai-Bhutz. I asked her if it would be alright that that poster is my prize and she agree so there goes my poster.

Then we did some karaoke and guess what? I can't stop myself not to flail over Kusano when I saw him in cherish PV. I was like aslkasjdhflas, Kusano was a really good dancer. awwwwww. Then we played another game "charade", hahaha! and guess who won this time? well of course it's none other than our group! yeay! KAT-TUN team always wins. hahaha! and our prize this time is .........Button pins! yeay! I got a Kanjani8 one, since I don't like the Kame pin.

The day continued with jikushokai (introduction of new JE fans). It was'nt yet the half of the intro when we, all the six of us decided to perform so we informed lhuke that after everyone is done we would do our perf. hahaha! It was scary at first the moment we were upstairs, I could not help but tell them that I was really neverous that something might go wrong or they might not like the perf and some other things. But from the encouragements I receive from them we had our very last practice(after we changed into our costumes that is) and this time no more scolding and shouting from me since i'm that nervous. 

After that last practice, we all went downstairs all together. Pat said to us that the feeling was like we were actually KAT-TUN and we were to perform in a concert, really that help me alot to be more nervous than before, but it was okay. Finally the most awaited perf has come. They all cheered for us and we were happy and yet nevrous at the same time. hahaha! If you knew our routine you would say that I made quite a lot of mistakes haha!

( is getting speechless...) anyway to make the story short the gathering was really fun and exciting we met new fans and our team won every game! hehehe! I love the shop pics!!!! yeah!

Title: Once upon a time; forever

Pairing: Akame, Hayakame, Hayaryu

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters in this story even if a lot of people want to own them.

Rating: PG (for now)

Summary: Eternal love is the sweetest thing in this world, but if one loves too much things are not as sweet as it was before. Hatred, sorrow and sadness will accompany it. Would an impossible love survive? Will Kame and Jin survive this roller coaster ride? And Will Ueda be in time to save one of them from this twisted faith? (Sorry I can’t think of any better summary for this)

A/N: anyway just a reminder to those who will read this crap, this is just a fiction anything impossible can happen according to what is in the author’s imagination. That’s all….I hope you will like it.

 

July 4, we celebrated jin's birthday!

It was a lot of fun and we meet a lot of kat-tun fans and most of them are Jin fans and akame fans. We had games and had a Jin tribute (showing slide show pics of jin). This birthday celebration had it's good and bad happenings. Good things, everybody had fun and had a little chat and bonding session with other Kat-tun fans. Bad thing is because I broke down when something big happened, I wont mention it for a while 'cause I still feel bad about it!

Like I said in the GMs that everybody received. I am really sorry that I had to cry in front of everybody 'coz nobody expected that something like that will happen and as an organizer (and our first time) it's a really big shock for us.

Bhutz said to me that she was somewhat bothered and worried when she found out I was crying under the table because she knows that I would easily cry. Thus hearing this she and Ysa had to keep themselves from crying too.

anyway I'll repeat this again! I'm sorry! I hope everybody got their own pins! (jena and lhuke thanks!)

Here are the pix from the birthday bash! don't hesitate to grab them! just don't forget to credit!

thanks!

-Yubi-

P.S if you still want the info about the other fans who went to the gathering just PM me and i'll give them to you! and don't forget to tell me who you are! thanks!


(photo's here)

 yes! finally! i'm two steps closer to my dream! why so? well my 3rd/2nd year in college began this morning! hell yeah!

no more boring and lonely days at home! and say hello to OKANE again! hahaha! i'll be saving big time this year because i'll be preparing for a lot of things! first would be the concert good that i will order. then pay my debt to my dad, and save for the things that i need for the kame dues pv costume! hahaha! i know i still have a lot of time for that costume but it's better to be ready than sorry! hahaha!

anyway about school, it started just like any other school day! i met beam and the others this morning for my first class/second class for them, since i already passed the subject they took before my class.Anyway! all we did this day is fangirl and talk about a lot of stuff.

we really missed each other and we had a great time. we even recalled our first meeting last year and it was so funny reminiscing the past! hahaha!

anyway i only got 1 hour to use the computer so i got to go i still need to read some more stuff!

ja ne! till next time again!

by the way...i'll be going to toycon this saturday! hope to see you guys there!

 this post has got something to do with kat-tun's  YOU PV which i find unusal hahah!
just wanna share with you guys! (i'll be locking this post okay!)
now read carefully:

1: during the first chorus where everybody is standing in a straight line you will notice that the angle of the camera is far from the whole shot of the group, its not only during the first chorus but everytime they have to angle the camera showing the six of them, plus jin there is not moving at all he is like a doll. so i think that when they shoot this particular scene jin is no longer with kat-tun.

2:if you also notice jin is not moving from his spot. i mean the place where he is leaning against the wall. while the other memebers are moving around. like kame walking down from the stairs, ueda walking, maru walking towards the old guy, junno tap dacing and koki moving from the chair he was seated to the camera. it was jin who is the only one who didn't move from his spot all he did was toss the coin and that's it!

3.Jin has a very few and short air time during this vid.while the others has shown their faces more than 3 times up close.

4.during the second chorus while they were singing the lines "anata no hoka ni nani mo iranai..." you would notice that the five (KTTUN) were switching places. the first line up is (-T,U,N) then (T,N,U) then (K,T,-T)then (N,U,T) then (U,T,-T).[that would be around 2:09-2:15] then after the last change jin suddenly appears but he was alone. which is kinda odd why he isn't included during the switching.

5.whenever jin has a solo close up it would be the same back ground and the sides of the screen is kinda dark.

6.3:42 in time during the PV jin is still not moving that much unlike the others who are moving they way they feel.

7. from 3:46 to 3:48 you can see that big gap or space between jin and koki and jin and kame(let's put aside the akame here).

8.if jin was ever with kat-tun when they shot this it was only during the last part where they slowly left the place. but then kame just passed by jin as if he wasn't there and jin's shoulder should have collided with junno's like when kame bumped into ueda during RF PV.

and so my theory about this pv not having a "making of" is because if they have then fans would find out that jin was just added in this vid and how they patched up everything. i also guess that jin had his solo shots in this vid. maybe it was shot earlier than the group before he left.

 this things are just my own observation and theory. It's up to you to believe me.

it was funny at first how i noticed it after watching it the second time. even my friends who were kat-tun fans was really surprised when i told them about this and showed them. they were really amazed how i quickly notice such small details.


IT"S UP TO YOU GUYS TO DECIDE!